BoNd oF love

I saw him when i was little, I did not realise who he was, I did not realise what he meant to me.. I did not realise how much love he has for me.. I saw him when I was a child, I did not realise his affection, I did not realise his care, I did not realise how much protective he was.... I saw him when I was young, I did not realize his anger.. I did not realize his loneliness.. I did not realize his solitude.. I lost him when I wanted to know him.... I lost him when I wanted him to protect me.. I lost him when I wanted him to guide me, I lost him when I wanted to love him..... I lost him when I wanted to protect him....I lost him when I wanted to give him all the possible happiness in the world... I lost him....I lost him..... Now I realize his anger,his solitude,his affection and his love.... But its too late.......too late.....

ThOUghtS.....

Walking lonely down the road...people come n people go.....its difficult to understand what people want from you..what they expect....but its more difficult what u want from life!
I feel happiness in sadness at times...loneliness has become a habit...when people need me am there for them or at least I try but when I need them I cant find any......I cry silently and wish for someone to ask me why I am crying but no one does.....I feel happy at times but I cant find any person worth sharing my happiness.....misunderstandings are always a part of life n love..but what happens when people almost everytime fail to understand you....your comments..yourr behaviour...more importantly u being yourself annoys them..disturbs them what do u do??
when u think that maybe u cant achieve what u want to achieve u feel broken from inside...the fear of failure tears u from inside...what happens when u cant live upto ur own expectations!!!...its scary really scary....
so in life...just being yourself doesnt help.....u need to b a lot more than that

Yes these are some of my thoughts…it may not be that important to anybody but its definitely important to me…..

LiFe.....

what is there to live in this ruthless world
what is there to hold me back......
what is there to cry for......
what is there to be faithful,
Because at all the faces I stare...
I see sadness,loneliness and incompetence.....
as I see the faces and eyes..I slowly realise that its a mirror
image of me,me and only me.........